I've become convinced that the more time I spend in this building the more depressed I become in general. I'm starting to feel very emotionally tired and a deep sadness lingers around me.
I've pulled up my resume numerous times. I am convinced there is nothing more I can do to make it better. Currently, it is an experience based resume. I guess I could change it to a skills based resume so that it is more apparent what my skills are and how I can transfer those skills to positions outside of teaching and education.
But at the same time, I have had a hard time considering what I would do outside of education. I have thought about it so much lately. I feel the pressure more so now than when I was a senior in high school or a sophomore in college (deciding to go to college and deciding what degree I would carry).
I have thought about my values. My passions. I feel lost.
Every job I apply for makes me feel more inadequate. I have getting rejection letters that state I need more experience. I feel as though the work I have done these last two years isn't recognized and as thought I need to start out at ground zero again.
